Singer Billie Eilish, openly shared his experiences and reflections on his gender identity and attraction to women. In an interview for Variety’s “The Power of Women” issue, the 21-year-old spoke about the challenges she has faced in relation to her body, her femininity, and her sexuality.

Eilish, known for her distinctive style of baggy clothing that hid her figure for years, confessed to the magazine that she has grappled with the perception of her appearance and identity because she has never felt “desired or desirable.”

“I’ve never felt like a woman, to be honest with you. I have never felt desired. I have never felt feminine. “I have to convince myself that I am a pretty girl,” the artist shared.

The Grammy winner also clarified her preferred pronouns, identifying herself as “she,” though she said she hasn’t really felt like a girl. Eilish explained that her complicated feelings about her own femininity have led her to feel like she can’t relate well to other women.

Despite these internal struggles, the singer openly admitted that she feels “attracted” to other women and highlighted her deep affection for them in her life, including friends and family. However, she revealed that she felt intimidated by the beauty and presence of the women.

“I love them so much. I love them as people. I am attracted to them as people.. I’m really attracted to them.

“I have deep connections with the women in my life, the friends in my life, the family in my life. I feel physically attracted to them. But I am also very intimidated by her beauty and her presence,” said the singer.

The artist, who has been the subject of intense media attention about her sexuality and dating history, said it has been a “strange and upsetting” experience. Eilish has maintained relative privacy about her personal life, but the interview mentioned her last known relationship with Jesse Rutherfordby alternative band The Neighborhood, which ended in May after eight months.

Previously, Eilish was romantically involved with actor Matthew Tyler Vorce and rapper Brandon Adams (known as 7:AMP), experiences that were addressed in her documentary (2021), available on AppleTV.

The young artist has also expressed frustration with the attention focused on her sexuality, questioning why the same energy isn’t applied to men in a 2021 interview with Elle.